Hat: Forever 21
Blouse: Forever 21
Necklace: Forever 21
Skirt: Forever 21
Boots: J Shoes (thrifted)
Didn't realize how much Forever 21 I was wearing here, weird since I can not even remember the last time I was in that store. Maybe their clothes last longer than we all thought?
An idea was brought to my attention today. I was having a conversation with my boyfriend during lunch and I was casually saying how I am not very creative. He was about to say something, but then changed his words at the list minute and asked why I thought that. I told him that I am just not that innovative, that is a struggle for me to think of something completely original. Then he got serious and said, "Well, I think that is what school does to a lot people. Tells them to think one way and then once your brain learns that method of thinking it is hard to change it." This caused me to stare out the window and ponder what he had said for a few minutes.
Could it be true? What a frightening idea, it almost seems like he was suggesting a form of brainwash. However the longer I sat there, staring out the window at nothing in particular, the more it seemed plausible to me. School is rather controlling, at least public school (from my past experience). However, I realized this could not be true, because it was not like we were being taught by the same teacher for all our classes. Students switch from class to class and get taught from different minds with different ideas and beliefs everyday. Before voicing my new found data that his theory could not be true, another thought struck me.
In elementary school I was taught by one teacher for the whole year. Perhaps not having enough opinions at a young age has actually affected me, my creativity. I agreed with him. "How do we fix our minds then?", I asked. He looked me in the eye and said "You have to be weird". At which point we both laughed and moved on to another topic.
Perhaps weird is a harsh word, so let's go with quirky. Quirky people, the ones who know random facts, who read books all day for fun, or who have amazing skills that one could never guess, these are the people I am envious of. They do what they want and even though they may be labeled weird by mainstream society, they don't care. They can create and do what they please, it must be so freeing. I wonder what it is like to not be held back by what we have been taught is correct or appropriate.
The point is, I am scared that I will not be able to fix this. That is too late for me, but that is silly right? Surely creativity is something you can work on and get better at, surely you can stop caring about what other people think and do what you want. I do not like the idea of being stuck in this state of an average mind so therefore I have to try to make it better. Perhaps drawing? Listening to new music? Sewing? All I know is I want to get started immediately, before my worst fears come true, and it is too late for me.
Side note: One of my lovely readers mentioned a TED video to watch on the subject of education and creativity, which was just brilliant. Click Here to watch that video. This then led me to other videos and I think you should also watch This one if you are interested on this subject as well!